Inside i divide

So take this spark of life, ignite the blueprint of design,

That lit the flame that burns in an instant,

I will find i'm getting nowhere fast, when all my thoughts become unclear,

And they cloud the mind, thoughts turn to dust, then disappear,

When i need to recognise who i am with my own eyes,

Once again i try to hide, on the inside i divide.

When i need to recognise who i am with my own eyes

Will that hatred turn to lies?

I can't help but feel that i dropped so hard when i fell,

And i can feel that i need to ask myself,

When i'm looking to define, "What it means to me?"

Is the weight within my mind, all those questions i keep on asking?

To explain my own life to me in a way i can believe.

Misplace trust somewhere in me, searching for all that i need.

Mistrust in me, and i can feel that mistrust in me,

When i fell from the family.